I hate silence

I hate being in a silence mood and rushing action.

Once I used to be cheated by the silence of someone very closed, someone very special, it hurts me deeply. I can’t bear to be normal with that f**king hurt even I tried the best to put myself out of nervous…I still remembered that f**k*ng bike that I rode him until he broke all his spokes, because of my personal affair you had to be lived shortly, poor bike.

Now I am silence, I can’t be responded to someone who had asking for an answer, that an answer will take out a whole life of mine to be something that difficult to come back like a DELETE, COPY, PASTE in the modern technology systems.

SO AUTOMATICALLY I am a cheater. I have became a cheater to every little thing to that person who had a million question to me and just want back an answer that will need only two capital words.

“OK” is still difficult to say at this moment of silence and I hate myself for cheating someone very pure heart, someone doesn’t know how big the world is. How can I make a karma for that same problem? To someone really loyal to what occur in that pure heart?

I am now really a beautiful cheater in the world, a series cheater. I trust no one right now. And what I am doing is just finding happiness for just a moment. I am afraid of being related to each other in daily life.

Is it my fault??? I don’t know that someone could blame me of being selfish or being cheater.